This week I started to play the guitar. I know two chords now 🙂 and I can play a song with them. I’m so inspired! I’ve been thinking about playing the guitar for such a long time, and decided that 2025 will be the year when I try it out for real. I have a guitar in my vision board for the first part of the year, a beautiful black and white, rustic image.
Actually I planned to start about two weeks ago, but never got around to it. There it was, standing in the middle of my hallway where I can see it from my work station. Almost looking at me. And I was wondering, why don’t I just start?
Processing instead of pushing
But instead of pushing myself, I asked myself – “what do I need right now?” when I felt that feeling of not wanting to play. It turned out that I needed several things, all from a little self healing to simply some time to really get used to the idea. Now I’ve started and I think that it’s fun! I believe that I will continue.
So I allowed myself some processing before getting started instead of pushing myself to it. Sometimes pushing might be good and even necessary, but for a long lasting change, it’s often contra productive. A simple check in and answering the question “what do I need right now?” often leads to interesting answers and a path to your goal.
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I’ve had such a lovely start of 2025, started going to the gym 5 days a week, feels great! It gives energy to all other to-dos that I have during the day. It felt like hard work at first, but now it’s becoming a normal part of my day, just flowing into my life with ease.
But change does take some investment, time and effort. I remember for example one of my most magical manifestations. I was living in Vienna at the time, just been dumped by my boyfriend and I was in an apartment with just a three month lease. So a place to stay was necessary. I didn’t have so much money at the time, but was decided – I was going to have a place with space to dance where I could stay for some years.
Manifestation – joy and hard work
I used one of my own methods of manifestation, The Butterfly Journey, which allows for your wish to evolve all the time and works with all levels of your being in a fun and creative manner. It also takes into consideration that we co-create reality with others, Source, the universe etc in a playful manneer.
Working with it every day for weeks, going through several processes within and an increasing sense of flow, I finally posted an ad in a newspaper when I felt ready. Within two days, I got a call from a woman. Her son had gone to Venezuela and she needed someone to stay in the apartment. It was 90 m2, exactly where I wanted to live, it had a big living room with a DJ-set and large speakers so I definitely could dance! In the end, we reached an agreement and I got to stay there for 400 Euros per month, which was so cheap! But we also ended up helping each other, and I lived in the apartment for 3 years.
It’s a magical story and life can be truly magical, but one needs to work on it a bit for the flow to find it’s way through you. Today I help people finding that fluid state of being, of feeling better, healing from all sorts of problems and illnesses. If you feel like working with me, right now I have a Winter Offer, see below. It’s for 5 sessions, so that we can really go deep and do the work!
The Butterfly Journey is a playful but efficient way to manifest your hearts true wishes, without necessarily knowing what you want from the start. Whether you start with clear wish or a vague idea, it helps understand your wish and yourself better. It also lets you work with the blockades that you have – fears, traumas, beliefs, etc – which have kept you from manifesting your dreams and wishes earlier.
Following the transformational life of a butterfly
In the Butterfly Journey, you start with thinking of a wish that you have. Know that it can transform along the way. The path forward allows you to interact with all parts of your being as well as your surroundings, others, the universe, Source etc. All of this in a playful manner in the dreamworld, which interacts with and reflects reality all the time.
Imagine that you receive an egg from a beautiful butterfly or two. It’s placed in your hands. Bring your hands to your forehead and place it there, allowing it to land within your consciousness wherever it wants. Now you have started your journey. Close your eyes and see where it has landed, often in nature. Does it have what it needs? Give it whatever feels good, this is your inner world and you can do whatever you want in here. Visit about once per day, look what happens. Things going on around it are like dream symbols for what is going on with your wish. What the egg needs is also symbols for what your wish needs. Think about it, analyze. And things will start happening in your real life as well.
You continue like this with all steps of the evolution of a butterfly, and you will experience things happening in your real life as well. Be ready for an adventure and for yourself, your wish as well as life and others to surprise you!
The five steps of The Butterfly Journey of manifestation and transformation
the egg, the wish in itself, growing into being, transforming, starting to interact with the world
the larva, when the wish and you start taking in a lot of information and sustenance from the outside, things that will bring the manifestation into reality
the chrysalis, pulling back, integration and dreaming, various perspectives and possibilities competing and interacting with each other, bringing one out in the real world in the end
the butterfly, the wish transformed into reality, when your manifestation starts to become real, taking firm steps in real life, following the butterfly – following signs in the real world, be aware of synchronicity and flow, take chances
letting go in gratitude
You can look for the meaning of symbols in your journey on the internet, but also ask yourself, what do they mean to you? The symbols that you see, all that happens, will mean something. It’s interesting to analyze it, and doing so makes your wish clearer as well as brings you closer to it. Be ready for some processes of change and development. But most of all, have fun!
Love is always the basics of any spiritual journey. However, in shamanism, freedom is essential. Most of all, freedom of the mind or better said, in ones awareness. It allows you to really see, beyond concepts, to travel the worlds beyond without hindrance and to live without judgement. All of this is truly vital in the healing work of a shaman or shamana, as well as in ones own shamanic spiritual journey.
To interact with what truly IS
Freedom allows one to become as shamans call it fluid in ones awareness. To let go of societal constraints and reduce destructive learned behavior as well as trauma bindings or fears based upon bad experiences are all essences in many spiritual teachings. In shamanism however, it is not only essential but lies at the very core of the practice. Fluidity in ones consciousness allows one to really see and interact with what IS, with the true nature of existence and others. Thus one can act as a messenger between this world and the beyond, as well as be a conduit of true compassion and love.
A difficult but rewarding path
Often shamanic healing work is based in helping others achieve new levels of freedom within themselves. To do so, requires a level of freedom within the society that one lives in. Often a shaman or shamana lives a bit secluded from the rest of his or her community, to be able to act without being too influenced by the expectations or power struggles that usually flourish in a society.
To be truly free, from concept or within ones social field, takes a lot of work and can be difficult at times. But to be successful on a shamanic path it’s the key that opens the door to everything else. So if you are interested in shamanism or are already on this path, claim your freedom every day, the best you can! You will be grateful further down the road.
There are many articles on how to strengthen ones traditionally so called feminine energy, and for a good reason. This amazing force, which I call Darkness Divine, has been suppressed for thousands of years in a society focused on titles, achievement and physical manifestation as signs of success. However, I believe that now is a good time to nurture our traditionally so called masculine side in a healthy manner.
It might seem old fashion to talk about these concepts in a time when particularly the young generation are discovering identities and ways of being beyond the restraints of the traditionally masculine and feminine. Yet, it is important to look into ones history and know where you are developing from. And if one looks at them as the forces of healthy darkness and what I call Loving Light, they are very important aspects in any person, no matter their sexual orientation.
So how does one strengthen the force of light, or Loving Light, developing a healthy, traditionally called masculine energy flow of manifestation and shine from within, with that awesome vibration that is your unique expression?
The basics of Yang
Let’s start with looking into the concept of Yang. Yang is masculine, white, light, south, fire (creativity), active, sun (strength and the god Xihe), heaven, warm, young, odd numbers (1,3,5…), mountains, rich or full and hard. It provides form to all thing. It reaches it’s height of influence with the summer solstice. Yang may also be represented by the dragon, the color blue and a solid line trigram in I-Ching (Book of Changes).
So as the Yang is a force of light, it brings out the details of what is within and around you. To pay attention to detail takes focus, preferably on one thing at the time, no matter if that attention moves fast or slow. Considering that this power brings form to all things, it is connected to the ability of bringing ones vision into reality, providing new things to see with ones own eyes, which in turn can inspired anyone to bring the next manifestation into light. This is a heavy responsibility to have on ones shoulders, but also an exiting prospect. That what one does has meaning and gives an effect.
Providing form can also be related to how one expresses themselves. Who you are to the world and how you present yourself to others is very important of course, and a vital part in the process of how others allow you to shine your Loving Light upon them and the surroundings.
My journey into the masculine
So how does one go forward and become a beacon of healthy, Loving Light in the world? Some might think, since I’m a woman, I’m not the best source of information on this matter. On the contrary I think, since I have had to practice a lot to bring out this vibration in me, since it actually still is somewhat suppressed in the education and upbringing of women. I do come from a line of strong women with their own careers and was brought up with fathers (including stepfather) who taught me to be independent and develop my own, so called masculine abilities.
Still, I have been affected by the traditional role of a woman, like so many have. Like said, this meant a lot of practice to develop my capacity of bringing form to my manifestations with my own power, as well as much inner growth to dare to present myself to the world in the way that I want from the bottom of my heart. All of this gave me a better understanding and capability of shining my inner light upon the world in a respectful, some times powerful, sometimes gentle and always creative dance with others. I’m still practicing of course, and below are some of the methods that have and still are helping me on the way.
5 ways to strengthen your masculine energy
Stay focused. Practice by, for example, meditating with your eyes fixed on a point, perhaps a bright point. Let distracting thoughts fall away. Keeping your eyes open enhances your ability to face daily life with the same focus. You can also do this exercise while for example washing the dishes or cleaning the apartment. Stay completely focused on what you are doing, one step at the time and enjoy as well as appreciate each step as much as you can.
Write a story with yourself as the hero/heroine. What challenges do you face? Who/What helps you? What puzzles/quests do you need to solve on the way? What goal will you reach? How does it feel to be a hero/heroine?
Stabilize your energy field. Feel the field just like you can feel the body sometimes. Are there holes or weak points? Are you leaking energy? Fix this with the power of thought and visualization, in conjunction with compassion towards yourself, as well as others that might be involved. For example, if you see a knife in your back, remove it, recycle it and care for the wound with your mind and imagination.
Go out into the woods and find a power scream! It should not rob you of power, but allow power to flow through you. Direct the power with care.
Write down some of your opinions and sit for some time with them, considering different ways of explaining them to others, as well as how to stand up for them, within and without. How can you do this firmly, yet adding gentleness and deep respect towards the opinions others? Is it important to you that people accept them straight away, or can you find it within you to be content with simply letting be said and give people with other opinions the time to reflect? Are you ready to change your way of thinking, without committing violence upon yourself and who you are? Reflect upon these questions often. Manifestation often means collaboration. Make sure that you can participate, but be ready to dominate in a compassionate manner when it is suitable.
Shift into Power 